Daily dosage...

2010-12-10T12:08:00.002+08:00

town's looking good now during the x'mas period. though its kinda too purplish for me. hmmm.

2010-11-20T13:33:00.001+08:00

i've been playing around with photoshop lately. its kinda fun.

SURPRISE MUTHAFUCKA!

2010-11-08T22:50:00.003+08:00

I JUST GOT BACK MY IC TODAY!

2010-10-18T20:24:00.001+08:00

NO MORE WORKING DAYS!

ORD LOH!

FUCK YEAH!

I've got a new toy

2010-09-22T18:05:00.003+08:00

and NO, its not a fuckin' sex toy.

i've just spent a grand on a camera. i think it was a very impulsive decision. but WHAT THE FUCK. ORD-LOH!!!!!

speaking of that, imma not going back to camp anymore, so i've got slightly more than a month to rot and pretty much do whatever i want. probably play around with the camera or something. hmmm. its a good investment.

teenage angst

2010-09-09T00:06:00.003+08:00

this isn't about me. its about how parents don't seem to understand their kids. and no, im not talking about my parents, hell - they're fine the way they are now.

i'm just noticing how in general, some parents till this date, do not fully comprehend that the teenage years is somewhat a crucial and fragile moment of any individual's life. it shapes how a young one would live their life in the future, and YOU as parents are the ones who's gonna mold you kid's future, so unless you wanna fuck them up in the head, i suggest you lose the fuckin tyrannical grip on them kids.

you know that you're fuckin being menopausal/andropausal and you choose to ignore it and end up fuckin your kids' minds. venting your health/work issues on them.

and kids, you know your parents are going through shit and you're not making it easier for em. so i suggest to you, you're still living in the same house as them, listen to them and never talk back, you'll never know when they'll kick you ass outta the house - this i know, from experience. once they've cooled off, confront them. they'll be surprise at how you'll be able to control the situation.

...

that was a very random post i know.

i've been feeling very agitated lately.

the time has come.

2010-09-02T18:19:00.002+08:00

12 days leave, 17days off, 12days MC - go do the fuckin' math.

O-R-FUCKIN'-D LOH ALL YOU MUTHAFUKASSSSSSSSS!!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOT WOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!

hope - for the hopeless.

2010-07-26T19:13:00.007+08:00

"hope is the worst of all evils, for it prolongs the torment of man" - Friedrich Nietzsche

some people choose to have a sense of hope; a hope that something positive would occur to them, a hope that during their call of desperation, it would be magically answered if they cling on to it and devote their life into what a book tells them to believe. They choose hope because its their last resort, because they've nothing left to lose, or simply because they're just afraid of the future or perhaps even insecurities in their life?

well, you can say i'm being ignorant.

no, i just simply choose not to believe and hope. I've had enough of that. Pinning everything you've ever wished for or ever had, onto someone, something, anything, but it eventually just comes crashing down into your face. if anything positive actually happens, i'd simply take it as a bonus. its no point feeling crushed after you've hoped for something - but it never happens. i just don't see the point in that. stupid, ain't it?

Its just an overrated belief.

the demons within

2010-07-20T22:14:00.004+08:00

im sorry i couldn't be who you wanted me to be. im sorry i couldn't be the one whom you've looked up to, im sorry for not being there when you wanted me to, im sorry for not achieving what you've hoped for, im sorry for being selfish, i'm sorry for losing out on everyone, im sorry for the lost potential, im sorry i lied, and im sorry for all the regrettable things i've done.

those days are over.

cus of them demons.

everyone has them, its just a matter of how they choose to control them.

well, i say fuck it. fuck all of it. fuck you all. im done being controlled like a puppet by anyone, im done picking up from the pieces where they've all left behind, im done chasing something that was once said to be there. im done waiting. im done saying sorry.

just let it take over. tell yourself.

2010-07-18T23:05:00.000+08:00

to tell you the sights these eyes have seen...

liberation of the mind

2010-07-12T22:30:00.004+08:00

its like that. you're at your peak, your mind can't work no more. the man in the green uniform is still holding you down, and you're nothing but a dog in a hierarchy where you get shit on - on a daily basis. you're trapped inside your head with nowhere to go, only to accept the fact that you're in this mess.

you're telling yourself each morning as you wake - take it as another day; no biggie - but deep inside you're feeling as fucked up as any kid on his first day of school.

when your break finally catches up, you over do it. cancer sticks and the bottle's your companion, top it off with crazy people around you and there ya go; a fuckin' concoction to kill your body and your soul.

and repeat.

just don't shit yourself... too much.

2010-07-06T21:07:00.001+08:00

partying 2 nights in a row is a very stupid thing to do.

2010-06-29T21:40:00.003+08:00

i always wanted to chill out to Andrea Bocelli's Besame Mucho on a cozy evening while sitting on the front porch of a house looking into the setting sun with a classy cigarette.

i think i think too much.

2010-06-28T16:12:00.003+08:00

i can't stand china people
i can't stand old people who qiong for seats on the mrt
i can't stand crying kids
i think i've a messed up sense of humor
i think im on my way to hell
i don't think religion is working
i don't think there will ever be anything completely perfect
i think i get ticked off too easily

karma.

2010-06-14T21:38:00.003+08:00

i hope you read this. and read this well.

a couple of years down the road, or even months, life for you is gonna be a living hell.

till that day arrives, i'll be looking for forward to it.

and when the day finally comes, i'll be there - and definitely not for you. im gonna be there enjoying every moment seeing you and your life being broken down into pieces as you wasted your fucking life away.

not fun

2010-06-07T21:17:00.002+08:00

having 4 hours of sleep the night before isn't fun.

having 4 hours of sleep the night before and having to do shit the whole day is kinda screwed up.

having 4 hours of sleep the night before and the people who i've to do shit for, comes late. now thats just fucked up.

typical.

2010-06-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

life's awesome.

to whom it may concern.

2010-05-28T04:02:00.001+08:00

haven't i said this many times that i'm a very VERY vengeful person?

if i could..

2010-05-27T18:15:00.001+08:00

if i could have a guilt-free day, without having to answer to anyone for my actions (or even the law)....

i would go on a selective killing spree.

life would be better.

payback's a bitch

2010-05-24T22:55:00.002+08:00

migraines. it sucks.

im sleepy like fuck in the day, but with rampant headaches driving through my skull. and at night i can't seem to sleep. its like someone's drilling into your damn head. its so bad that i've to take the strongest panadol i can get at my med centre. and its only working at say... 40-50% for me? i've been recommended to see a neurologist at ttsh...

brain tumor. fail. lol.

seriously though. it'll be an epic fail and fml.

till then - time to catch up with youth.

not worth it, never will be.

2010-05-21T18:17:00.004+08:00

another 3 years of my life. wasted. again. within this time, i've realized i've changed - now that i look back into 3 years ago till today. i've sealed up my heart, became colder, prevented others from knowing what i really felt and i promised myself each time that nothing will hurt me emotionally ever again. though, i guess it did at some point.

to me its not worth feeling remorseful, self-pity, apologetic, sad or anything. its just not worth to be dragged down by anyone that caused so much sadness and hurt in the past and then even during final blow.

it'll never be worth it.

so this is how it ends.

2010-05-04T20:57:00.002+08:00

2010-04-14T22:42:00.001+08:00

i shat on a lizard today.

naice.

you can call me intorlerant

2010-04-01T23:33:00.002+08:00

he yawned loudly the moment he sat down next to me

he started picking his nose right beside me while i stared at him

conversed loudly with the other one oppsite him

rolling god knows what in his fingers after picking his nose

rubbed his face after picking his nose

and lets just say there are millions of em out there.

2010-03-28T20:13:00.001+08:00

i just bought myself a 23inch hp monitor for mah com (and PS3)

im gonna go blind soon.

2010-03-25T22:35:00.001+08:00

i just bought myself a HP 2309m monitor.

its like... technological porn. a feast for the eyes. my god.

FPS FTW

2010-03-14T16:06:00.001+08:00

i just bought battlefield: bad company 2 for the ps3. it is AWESOME. in a way its like MW2. haven't really tried the online play yet... so can't say much. but from the trailers and gameplay footage on youtube, it looks fuckin awesome.

and GOW3 is coming out on tuesday! HELL FUCKIN' YEAH.

reasons why im going to hell.

2010-03-08T21:54:00.002+08:00

1. im not gonna say this again. i already did. read below.

2. i have violent thoughts... randomly. very very violent.

3. im vengeful. very.

4. i like.... certain.... songs.

5. im rather... vulgar.

6. i like gory movies.

7.... and other undisclosed stuff. if you get my drift.

so, who's joining me?

2010-02-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

this may sound faggy but, this is my new favourite song.

vid's creepy though.

internet sucks.

2010-02-17T23:06:00.004+08:00

my internet sucks the way mediacorp likes playing b-grade movies, no wait fuckin C-grade movies regarding weird ass monsters killing people (snakeman, sharkman and whatnot)

its so fuckin slow that it makes my com look like the first wheel ever created by cavemen compared to today's technology.

half the time on COD MW2, i get killed even though i gave out the first shot to the guy infront of me. and on the killcam, my shot wasn't even registered. it only showed me being killed by the other guy without my shot going off.

i hate my net. its mio btw.

2010-02-03T22:58:00.002+08:00

Its close to 11 now, im suppose to be in bed.

im tired, but i don't wanna go.

i realized that i feed off the reaction of passengers who rush into the MRTs, while brushing and shoving against people along the way before finding out that all the seats are already taken. especially aunties. i feed off this shit.

im definitely going to hell.

2010-01-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

my skin's peeling off from last week's sun burn

and my back is yet AGAIN filled with mosquito bites.

fuck.

red

2010-01-25T22:06:00.003+08:00

i have very bad anger issues.

i fell asleep on the train home today with slipknot in my blasting into my ears.

i really do have anger issues.

its been too long...

2010-01-14T19:42:00.004+08:00

its been too long since i've written down my thoughts.

its been way too long since i've felt free in my life to do whatever i want, whenever i want. there will always be a boundary in life, there's only so much one could advance without the being held back by life; money, health, relationships, time. shit.

on a irrelevant note, i think my fitness is declining, not that i'm complaining that the army is not doing anything for me, but i guess it's just my problem. i wanna get under the sun (definitely not together with NS) (but) during my free time. which means i need to get myself a new ball.

till then'
i'm going on a (selective) killing spree.